I have not written anything in a while. This has been an unusual summer. Ha! Hasn’t it been all of 2020? Do you even remember before March when everything seemed normal? Nothing has been normal since that date.
When I write my blogs, I want to be in a good place mentally so that I am an encouragement rather than a drag on my readers. It just seemed hard to do. When we arrived in Missouri in May, about a week after our arrival, Dennis got sick, and I mean “I can’t breathe” kind of sick. He did not have COVID-19, thank God, but he was sick for about three weeks. There are no real answers yet, although he is feeling good again. What would cause such lung distress? He has cardiology and pulmonary appointments in the coming weeks that may answer some fo the questions. He was at his primary card doctor last week, and I was allowed to be there also. The doctor listened to his heart and lungs and stated that they were nice and clear. Go figure.
That started our most unusual summer. I think I just feel out of place here in mid-Missouri. I has been my home for 7 years, but I feel our Arizona home is more home. That could be that we have the majority of our belongings there. We have a minimum here in Missouri. If we have more than two guests, we must use paper plates, since the majority of our dishes are in Arizona. We call this our vacation home even though it is still our primary residence. We live in an area of Arizona where we have many goods and services just down the road, unlike living in the country. We have made meaningful friendships there.
There is the another reason this summer is unusual. I fully expected that we would close on the Missouri house and not be here this summer, or maybe just for part of the summer. It looks like we will be here the whole summer. That is a good thing since the Coronavirus is running rampant in Arizona, and it is not a good time to return. We are not sure when a good time to return will be. We definitely have to figure out this breathing issue before we go back to a place where the danger of catching the virus is high. That may delay our return from our planned September date. Being here as long as we will be here was not in the plan. Once again, God’s timing is always better than mine, and it is good we are stuck in the country where the virus is not as crazy as it is in the cities.
Then there is the unrest in this country. It was ugly. I don’t watch the news much right now because I find it distressful. I understand being upset by what appeared to be a tragic death, but I don’t understand destroying property and harming others. I don’t understand the hate, and yes, to me it feels like hate. It makes me sad, and it makes me worried for our future generations if this kind of behavior is acceptable. I don’t understand defunding police departments. There are such sweeping generalizations that if there are a few bad apples, we just get rid of them all. Law and order doesn’t seem to be of importance any longer.
So, I haven’t written anything. I spend my days walking 3 miles in our neighborhood, hitting the pool, playing dominoes with Dennis, watching movies, and cooking. I’m working on creating some more quilts, but with the pandemic, it is hard to get fabric and supplies easily. I have been waiting a week for a delivery that has yet to arrive.
Life is not normal. I miss seeing my friends. I miss going to church to worship. We stream our service every Sunday, and that has been good, but getting out of the house just feels good sometimes.
The end of this week I am flying from St. Louis to Dulles Airport in Washington D.C. My sister lives an hour from there in West Virginia. I am going to spend a week with her. I understand that Southwest Airlines is not filling the center seats, and everyone is required to wear face masks. I think the trip should be safe. I think a change of scenery will be good for me. When I arrive back a week later, we will have our travel trailer parked at an RV park outside of St. Louis and we will spend a week hanging out there. I’m not sure if I will be seeing anyone other than our kids, since we have been careful who we are connecting with for health reasons.
I went out to lunch with a few ladies last week. It was the first time I ate inside a restaurant since early March. It was a little unsettling. This new normal is still a learning curve.
I know that in the meantime God is working. He is in control. God is always working behind the scenes. Sometimes we don’t see it until after the fact. Then it’s like an ahh-haa moment. We see how we were blessed in the midst of everything we do not understand.
That’s where I am today. Just moving along. Going with the flow. Accepting things as they are, changing what I have control of, and letting go of what I cannot do. It will all work out.
I wish for this world peace and contentment. I wish for you during this crazy year, peace and contentment.